In May, when I first found out I was pregnant, after the initial excitement and joy I felt, I felt fear. It was like a dark cloud that came and surrounded me, and I’ve been fighting ever since to get it gone! Fear is my go to sin, something that creeps into all insecure and fragile parts of my life. Oh how I loathe it.
I remember telling myself that after 12 weeks I wouldn’t fear anymore…. then I still did so I was reassured at the 16 week ultrasound. Then it hit me. This is the rest of my life. I think I’m going to battle this every single day for the rest of my stinkin’ life. Things don’t get easier when our kiddo is outside my womb.
Well, not wanting to live in fear and worry for the rest of my life, I prayed and prayed, I read scripture, I talked with others, etc. Recently, I’ve been very encouraged by the book The Power of a Praying Parent. It has helped me to offer up specific and heartfelt prayers regarding my fear. It has encouraged me to pray and pray until I feel peace, and if that doesn’t work to ask others to intercede with me or on my behalf. In addition, today I stumbled upon this blog post. It’s a series about motherhood and fear. I’m not sure why, but it encourages me to know that I’m not the only one who battles with this. And, it’s wonderful that there are resources and encouraging words out there to glean from.
Mothers, or those in general who fear, how do you battle it? How do you not go crazy over worry for your children or x, y or z?